I was at a training a few weeks ago, before everything got cancelled.
My three hours was broken up throughout the day. In my down time I reviewed my notes, checked in on social media, and chatted with employees as they made their way back and forth to the bathroom which gave me a better perspective on the workplace and the challenges they were facing.
Then it crept in… the ego thought, “you should be working right now.”
I quickly ran through my to do list and considered if my world would be on fire if I didn’t do it right that minute. I discerned it would not. I had time the next day to be focused on that set of work.
So, I relaxed. It was okay for me to be present. I used to idolize the people who were constantly working. I thought they seemed so important. They must be, right? If they were constantly working they must be so important that their work could not wait.
I wanted to be important like that. At some point in my career I had that. Turns out, I hated it. I burned out. I began to feel like nothing was that important.
Busy is a myth of importance. I know, that one burns a little, but it’s true. The irony of this pandemic crisis is the gift of a slower pace. Use it. Take it. Slow down.
One of Brene Brown’s guideposts of whole-hearted living is “cultivate play and rest and let go of exhaustion as a status symbol and productivity as self worth.” Yeah, it hits home. It’s a lesson I learned the hard way. Yet, it still creeps its way back in, but I am better at recognizing it. I hope you, too, are able to challenge the voice that suggests you’re only as good as your hustle, because I can promise you, we are so much more than that.